The psychology is not unique to you. The more a type of behavior is re-enforced the more it becomes common place or second nature.This is a slippery slope to be on because as one accelerates towards a certain type of behavior the harder it is to break away or change it without a drastic intervention or purge.
Not all roads lead to a sex change, they just appear to be running parallel with it. And even if you think you are on "that" road. The nice thing about "roads" is that there is always a "crossover" ( I like that word "CROSSOVER" it seems so appropriate here.) up there a few miles ahead that you can use to make a u-turn,if you wish, and go in the other direction.
Nothing is ever written in stone. You decide. It's all about choice.