TL, Sounds like a real tough time, and i hope she will be more understanding, and things start uphill, now. If not, you sat and heard her out. I am lifetime single, and can't relate totally, but, i sure do relate to the last half of your thread! I also have few friends, have lost most of them, seldom hear, from any, and i dress up, partly because, of lonliness, being misunderstood, feeling unstuck, and free, as a lady, instead of rejected, socially hamstrung conflicted maleness. I would not want only cd friends, either. I value some of my maleness, but, it is for the vast majority of time, a very lonesome road. But, cding is also a very isolating thing. It seems like gg's are always in demand, cannot understand isolation, and social hamstringing, deep lonliness, that so many men feel.
