i wouldnt use the word because of the negativity around it...
I could say that all Transsexuals who never had a sexual feeling relating to their innate femaleness are simply not transsexual, but have a disorder called unfetishgynophelia...
of course i just made that up and so did Dr Blanchard....
for better or worse, the term just sets people off....
the fact that many transsexual women feel a sexual feeling when they truly feel their womanhood makes all the sense in the world...add testosterone to the mix and you get alot of unwanted erections...but then like pavlov's dog, you learn that it feels good, and more importantly it relieves your anxiety...
years ago, saying this outloud would get you immediately off the list if you were looking to get hormones and transition...so girls learned the script..
this myth did great damage to me...i have suffered for years and years thinking that i was cursed to stay a bitter man because i had these erections..i was told that i had fantasies...so just like with my maleness, i tried to work with that, and i got more and more anxious and depressed...
then i met 2 women that have transitioned for dinner, and i talked openly about this and they just laughed and laughed and said join the club..
so if the question is what do i think of autogynephilia...i try not to...
if you ask if i've been sexually aroused and what i think about it...i think it makes perfect sense, what sexual feeling was i supposed to have as a woman with a penis?? I never ever had a thought about using it to penetrate a lover..it just never occured to me.. of course, i was totally functioning down there and without that release of anxiety i would be dead...
i just wish i had somebody to talk to about this 10 and 20 years ago...
