Thank you all.
One thing about me is that I've known for many years that I wasn't alone in my feelings.
My problem has always been the negative feelings that go along with a socially unacceptable desire. Guilt, embarassment, confusion, anger, frustration, etc. have always kept me from fully exploring my female self.
I love dressing at all levels, whether it's just a pair of panties or to the nines. I just hate the thought of being treated like an outcast by friends or family if found out.
Over the past couple of years, I have reached a better level of acceptance of this condition of feminity. Now, instead of hating myself, I hate the world's view of gender variants.
I did see a transgender focused therapist in NY a couple of years ago. I only saw her for a few visits. I wasn't truly ready to step into that level of self exploration yet. The discussion during each visit kept leaning to my being more on the TG side of the fence than the CD side. Am I really in line with her assessment? I haven't explored that deep in to my psyche yet, so who knows. My main reason for seeing her was as an effort to save my marriage.
Having moved to Arizona this year, I am in search for a TG therapist in the Phoenix area now. I am finally ready to fully explore the deep dark secrets of my feminine characteristics and tendencies.
