As far as I am concerned, I have never, ever looked at a man in an attractive way. I have always been the biggest fan of the female form, and aside from a one night stand (experimental) a few years back, with another "girl", I've never even thought of being with a man. However, all my life, I have felt so all alone, I've always thought that there was no one out there how could ever truly love a girl like me, I've always figured that one day, I would die alone, never having experienced unconditional love, someone who would love me, for Who I Truly Am. Recently, I met someone, who is (like me) not gay, but who we both share a mutual and genuine care for eachother, and it does puzzle me quite a bit. He really is a wonderful and sweet guy, hard working single parent of an adorable little daughter who he just cherishes. This, among other things, make me so attracted to him! He has made me sooo happy, for the first time in 20 years, I have those little butterflies in my stomach, when I think of someone..you probably know what that means! I think that at this point in my life, while I have no interest in men, I do find myself open to someone accepting of the Real Me, regardless of gender. I've been too unhappy for most of my life, and at this point, I think that I just need to be with someone who loves and accepts me regardless to their gender. The older that I get, the less important something like gender becomes. We all want to be accepted and loved, and for girls like us, it does not come as easy as for "other" people. Just my two cents. Christine
