On behalf of myself and Emma (Stresskimo),
I'd just like to extend the greatest thanks to everyone who has contributed towards helping both of us start to deal with this.

It wasn't untill I joined this board myself that I began to fully accept myself. All the years of trying to stop and failing misserably. All the years of lies and hiding. All the guilt and shame. I thought I was the only one.
It has only been in the last 8-12 weeks that I typed the word 'crossdresser' into google! How dumb was I!?
Bringing myself to tell Emma was easily the most difficult period I have ever faced. How do you explain 15 years of shame, lies and guilt?
My biggest regret now, is that I never got to tell her myself.
Damn Firefox.
While computers have potentially saved our relationship in the aftermath, and have brought us to this wonderfull haven of acceptance and welcome, they are, at the end of the day, just a machine. They show no emotion, love or even consideration for feeling. (Im not looking forward to Skynet going live LOL
But this isn't all about me.

I agree with the idea that there seems to be a small culture of gurls who put across that "youre in denial unless youre 24/7, going outside, living it up".
To me thats just retarded, and to be honest, seems a little like dictation, and is very rude. Especially to new members such as my good lady. These people may be known on here for their views and attitudes as the say it as they see it type.

*Maude Flanders Voice*
But thinks of the noobs...
Won't somebody PLEASE think of the noobs!

CDing isn't black and white, its a million shades of grey, then every other conceivable colour on top of that! So please try to remember this when you post an OPINION.
Your opinion is not fact, so please do not phrase it as such.
A simple IMO (in my opinion) will suffice.

Also, while Im here, there is a population of people on here who seek to decieve and confuse others with their thesaurus-like vocabulary.
Now, not myself, nor Emma are dumb.
We both have IQs above 120, so there is no need to patronise us, or anyone else. But if I have to go to google to define any word that you post, then you will have negated your post by default... It wont be read. Simples (eerk).

Enough of my tangent.
Thank you all again so much.
For my push in the right direction.
For The welcome to us both.
For all the kind words.

Much love goes out to you all.

Smile
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