I would be a prime person to ask about stuff since I am FTM, yet wear eyeliner, shadow, put on wigs, and go out.
I don't wear girl clothes, but I do got style. Plus am gay. Some of my friends online had a moment of confusion on me coming out as this. I knew they saw it as a girl who believes she's a guy. Ok, we got that. But...then she says she's transgender, is male, but wears makeup and wigs, and drools over guys. WTF...why not just stay a girl? Oo
I completely understand their thoughts, but I honestly feel no connection to my female body. I loathe it. Ever since I was young, I always wore the pants. Wore the boots. Hung with more guys than girls. Was always "one of the guys".
I think, for me, a big part has to do with my love of art and anything I can color and design, I'm all over it. I love fashion and makeup. Have always been attracted to the more effeminate men, as well as the ones that might have the eyeliner. Color, variety, and outgoing natures like that grab me.
I also think it really is just part of my body and mind. I am very androgynous. My body is perfect that if I dress down and don't wear any makeup and don't do anything to my hair, I get some people thinking I'm a guy. I dress up, makeup and wigs, and I look 100% female.
For how my physical body is, my mentality (even took quite a few of valid gender tests) I always am balancing damn near in the middle. Just, in the end, I am more male than female.
So, yeah, that's why I do what I do. No traumatic childhood or past. No mixed emotions and misunderstandings of who I am. I have no idea if this contributed in a helpful way to this. I just wanted to try and give you one of the views of someone who does this ^^
