Well I could kill for what you have and what you are ‘wasting’. It’s something I have wanted all my life…but what you must understand is this hatred [I would say more a distressed jealousy] you have for us, is probably similar to what we have felt towards GM and MtFs at some point in our lives. I don’t know how many times suicide has came into my mind when I thought of how lucky you lot are, not because of the anatomy you have, but the choices of surgery.
When you get rid of your penis…you will most likely have a perfect looking vagina.
When we get rid of our vagina…we get a piece of sh*t that looks like it was created by a mad professor…which may never function properly, and may even reject from our bodies.
What you have to see is, the feeling you are having is normal for any trans person at one point in their lives. You have to see though that what you feel for us, is pretty unfair. We HATE our body the same way YOU hate yours.
Whenever you think how selfish we are, remember we may [or may not] think you are being selfish and stupid and horrible.
Personally I do not feel that for MtFs, I feel the utmost respect and honour to know such wonderful and strong people. My best friend is a MtF and she is more like a sister to me than my own biological sister. I have seen her at her lows and at her highs, I have seen her distressed about her anatomy, and she has held me as I cried about mines…we are on the same brainwave…but don’t worry Myojine, this feeling you are having will pass in it’s own time. Remember we are on the same boat as you are and we all must stick together and support each other…not hate and/ or feel jealous.
I hope this helped
