My earliest memories are of wanting to be a girl. I remember going to bed at night and getting down on my knees and praying that I would wake up as a girl.
I don't really know why I felt that way but I did. I also remember that I always wanted long hair like the girls I knew from school and I wanted to play with Barbies or with miniature houses. This was way before puberty when I was 5 to 7.
It felt normal to want to try on female clothes feeling the way I did but I also knew that I was supposed to be a boy.
Guilt and shame really didn't rear its head until puberty when when my body began to react to my dreams and dressing in ways that I was embarrassed and horrified about.
I hope this helps although it is just one of many stories.
