OK Vicki, you can "put aside" your male-self if you want. But please understand, Sex and Gender are two different things! I'm in The Medical Field, and I can imagine what your problem might be. But plenty of men have gone through your situation, and they still felt themselves to be men!
You can look at this any way that you wish, but I personally think that using your current condition as an excuse to finally release your femme-self is a Cop-Out. I would suggest that it's impossible for us to get rid of our femme-selves, they are an integral part of our whole person. You can suppress, but you do so at your own peril! Conversely, if you try to suppress or destroy your male-self; you might just cause The Same Problem reversed!
So, it's just "Food for Thought," but if it was my psyche, I wouldn't neglect either side. No Illness, no supposed infirmity, can make your brain not be a male or a female. Ultimately, about 99% of all Sex lies between The Ears.
Peace and Love, Joanie
