I fought it and denied it for years and became less and less easy to be around. While I thought I was hiding my feminine feelings, I was just letting the nasty side fester and grow. When I finally accepted that crossdressing was a natural extension of an important part of my personality I felt much better. I also became much nicer to be around since I didn't have that weighing on my shoulders. Coming out to my wife a little later made it even better. While I still have a long way to go I'm much happier with myself now than I've been in years.
Sometimes things happen in our lives that seem at first to be a disaster but in retrospect are revealed to be a blessing wearing a scary mask. I wish you and your wife the best as you continue to grow and explore this neglected part of your life.
