Hey Betty, I am a CD also being TG I have grown to the point of semi acceptance of my genetic look although transformed by HRT to somewhat in-between form by now. I am Alexia all on the inside and 24/7 I dream, I awake, I go about my day as Alexia and the mix of a guy who once thought he was a boss and now is just a part of an equation. Dressing en fem and all that goes with it wouldn't make me look of whom I am and feel, so I go about my business in drab non descriptive way. I find it freeing and I can finally be my self without making the whole world around me uncomfortable. Yes every so often I used to visit my closet and just put on a show, but that is what it felt to me like, a show. I wanted something more, something real and with HRT I am becoming physically who I am within. It will take time, and even if I don't arrive fully there, I am no longer shamed by being feminine and girly, this is who I am! I too, thought long ago that it will always remain in the closet but time have come when the desire to be true and feeling of living a lie was way too painful and strong. Only then I realized that time has come to aether end this charade or live the truth, I chose truth. So it took another 2 years and hormones to arrive where I am now but it was worth every painful moment on the way.
I can truly sing out loud now: Man, I feel like a woman
