Is this you? (All members)

[Tracy X Cruz]

Here are the statements

"I understand that some people on these forums want to disassociate themselves from anything masculine because of how they identify, which is fine but I don't understand why they then need to put it down. It seems like they completely forget transmen are on these forums as well and that by making negative statements about men, they are making them about you"

"it seems we are not seen as the men we are by some who are meant to know what we are going through albeit from the other side of the fence."

"it seems MtFs generally can't "handle" themselves as well as FtMs"

" I honestly prefer reading this section over the MtF section as its not the same types of threads over and over again"

Do you feel adequately described in the above statements?

Do you identify with these statements?

Not adequately. I do wish to disassociate my self with masculinity... but I try my best not to do too much male bashing because everyone deserves the benefit of the doubt. I will apologize if I have done any and assure everyone that most of my comments have to do with my masculinity and how long I had to fake it and present contrary to my desires and feelings.

I will see anyone how they ask me to see them, because that is how I wan to be seen. But in general I do not relate as well to men, so I apologize again if my interactions end up being awkward.

I can not speak for every body, and so I will not speak in general about how well we can handle our selves.

I have no problems with the repetition because surprisingly there is a lot of new or different information each time.


Have you ever felt that an FtM person is not male in the same way you identify as female?
NEVER, Hardware Software mismatch can happen both ways, again if they are willing to see past my beard and deep voice and look at me as a woman, I am more then wiling to see them as a man no matter what!

Do ever consider your experience becoming a woman or a man more real that what other TG or TS persons are experiencing?
No, the only reason my experience is in any way different is because it is mine, it lives with me, on this board, off this board, while I sleep, and while I live. It is mine, and so infinitely more personal to me, but in all reality it is infinitely the same as others and I do my best to respect that.

Do you feel you are not handling yourself as well as FtMs because you are a MtF?
I honestly do not know, I do spend most of my time on the MtF sections and on the Trans sections... but I have not noticed my handling being inferior.

Do you consider the posts on this forum less serious because we talk about clothing, boobs and and makeup, instead of sports, penises and cool clothing?
No, The importance of information is relative to the person and much of what is in these forums is very important to me and has helped me feel confident, understand parts of myself I would not have other wise, and deal with problems concerns that could never have been addressed elsewhere.

Do you as a transgendered person of either direction feel that your experience in living with a gender you having been born in disqualifies you from helping your brothers and sisters going in the other direction in becoming more of their chosen gender?
This time I say yes, I know it is bad... please try to understand... but I regret many things I did trying to present as male. I wish I could go back and undo things I said, ways I acted, lies I told... I think I am the exact wrong person to go to about being masculine because my opinions are colored by my life until now. I do not completely reject males mind you, nor do I reject the masculine parts of my self that are part of my self... I reject the acting male to fit in and blend in... I reject all the things I did to hide my nature.