Stop CDing forever

[JOJO44]

Chocolate flavored? I love chocolate!!!

Yes. In a heartbeat.... My life is too overly complicated....

Me? I prefer strawberry!

I have seen this question multiple times and have never answered because I can't come up with some upbeat, happy, silly answer. I can't this time either, but its time to answer.

I didn't get to choose if I wanted to be TG. Its simple a matter of I am who I am. Who I am is me and that includes of the ohhey gooey rich and chewy TG insides. It has been something I have known all my life but just recently have come to truly accept. I have come to believe that each of us was blessed to be just the way we are. So my heart says no.

But on the other hand there is the practical logical side. Unfortunately, being who I am hurts those that I love. That heart that says no breaks as I see the confusion, frustration and sadness this causes for those that once thought I was their knight in shining armor and then years latter found out that I am simply a damsel in distress.

Does that pill have a way to keep me from ever knowing or remembering who I am at my core? If it does I'll take a six pack to go. Flip the inner switch from chick to dude and don't let me know it. I'm like the guy in the matrix that was willing to go back in. Send me back and let me be blissfully ignorant and I would take that pill in a heart beat. Would I miss me yes, but I wouldn't know and those that I love would finally be able to smile at who I am again.

It would make my wife ecstatic to have her 100% husband back again. And, as all memory would be erased . . .
That would be an easy way out.
An easy solution.

I guess I am like Melinda G!! I wouldn't change a thing, unless someone I love really wanted me to! IMHO, being a CD is a state of mind! That means if you are mentally strong, you can change things without any pills. I did stop being a CD some years ago, and only started dressing again because my late wife begged me to. If you really want to stop you can, no pills are necessary!

I too, have stopped for short periods of time (from 3 months to a year). But it always seems to come back - - in spades.

Trouble is.
Maybe, this is the wrong area to say the following. If so, sorry.


One year ago last week my wife was diagnosed with stage three cancer.
Appx. three months later one of the doctors, that saw her in the beginning, saw her again and expressed surprise that she was still alive.

We left that negative MD.

This morning, my darling wife went to see her doctor again, and was informed that she was stage four and may only have two months left.

She has helped protect me and my dressing from nosy neighbors and prying eyes.
She has also wished, no, expressed strong desire that I stop.
And now, with her about to leave me. . .

The remaining time I have with her, I will spend doing what she wants the way she wants me to be.
Her strong and loving husband.