I have an odd issue with my sexual preference, because of me being trans, which I am getting more and more aware of the older I get.
The thing is... I know I like guys, and there is no doubt in my mind that I am, for the most part, attracted to men...
But even though I don't label myself as bisexual (yet), I AM sometimes attracted to females as well... not really femme woman, but woman who are boyish/butch/androgynous. It doesn't happen that often... but if I'm honest, it doesn't really happen that often with guys either... I tend to like androgynous people in general, I think, and there's just not a lot of them around here.
Have I been attracted to, and in love with, woman? Yes, I definitely have!
BUT... and here comes my trans-related problem... I have a HUGE problem with the female body. If I see a shirtless woman, or a vagina, I immediately go "eeew!" and turn my head.
I've come to realise that it's because it's an immediate reminder of what I have. Especially boobs. Seeing a pair of boobs reminds me that I have a pair of those too, and that works better than a cold shower on me.
I think what I'm trying to say is, in short:
I am attracted to woman, but I could probably never have a physical relationship with one, because their bodies makes me feel extremely uncomfortable in my own skin.
I'm wondering if anyone else have had this issue... and it doesn't matter if you're an MtF who feels this way about men.
If you've had this problem - have you been able to overcome it, and how did you do it?