Thanks all for your replies. I appreciate the TG folks giving their opinion but am really looking for CD's responses.
I too do not want to change who I am but I have considered therapy to better understand the reasons that I do CD so that I can better explain it to my SO. My SO accepts my CDing but is still confused as to why I do it. Other than explaining to her that it gives me joy, I honestly do not know why I do it. Is it from a particular part of my upbringing or is it jus part of my hardwiring. So I am looking for other CDs who may have worked in therapy to better understand why they are who the are.