I wish I had an answer for you Hayley. I too feel like a freak sometimes and wish I could stop cross dressing. As a fellow cd'er I can understand why he didn't tell you because I felt the same way when my wife of seven years found out about me. I think that when you find someone you love, your willing to hide this part of yourself to keep that person; even though you can't stop dressing. Hayley please know there are many like "us" in the world, and you can have a life with this person. He will still be a normal man in everyday life; its just that when there is a sale on women's clothing, he may want to go shopping with you