How do you PICTURE yourself?

[LeaP]

“A picture is worth a thousand words.” – Napoleon Bonaparte.

As a member of the forum community, what does a picture say about you? With the exception of the GG members, you are a male, yet you intentionally clothe yourself in the apparel of a female. In all likelihood, however,neither your parents nor society raised you this way. Boys wear blue, girls wear pink. So what gives? You cut across the grain of society’s acceptance, and indulge in this curiously remarkable endeavor.

“A picture is a poem without words.” Horace.

Do you see poetry in how you picture your femme self? Do you believe your life has become one of rhythmic composition, where your actions express excitement or pleasure by and through beautiful, imaginative, or elevated thoughts of dressing and/or femininity? When you dress, are you poetry in action? Or is dressing simply something you just do?

“The soul never thinks without a picture.” - Aristotle.

“The human being is the best picture of the human soul.” – Ludwig Wittgenstein.

Does your femme side mirror or otherwise express the being of your soul? Is the sum of your inherent femininity who and what you really are? Does your quest for femininity dominate your thoughts, and seep deep within your very being? Is this “lifestyle” so ingrained within you that it is not a choice, and a very much tangible part of your existence? Or do you view crossdressing more along the lines of a hobby, and to be enjoyed as such? Of course, some may argue altogether in a different manner, that this is instead a curse . . . . Are you one such person?

“The best part of beauty is that which no picture can express.” - Francis Bacon.

I really, really hope this is true. Because when I look at some of my pictures, I gotta wonder just what the heck am I doing . . . .

Regardless, how do you picture yourself?

Anne, never mind the pictures, one wonders more what your questions say about you.

In any event, I don't post pictures, so they say nothing about me. Some will (mis)take that for being inauthentic, but I'm not concerned about that and will have to let my writing speak for my soul. What A picture would show is a disconnect between mind and body. But I don't take pictures. I don't like seeing myself in DRAB or en femme. If I did, I would hope it would show the same thing upon which I've commented with other forum members' pictures - that something genuine shows through, regardless of passability.

No poetry for me. I dress because I have to. Lately, it doesn't seem to matter, but I have to do it anyway. Go figure.

I don't think in terms of femininity. I think in terms of femaleness, which I think very different. It does dominate my thoughts and pervade my being. It's played out throughout my life in ways that I'm only beginning to understand. I struggle with the question of whether it's a curse or not. Recently, I've written about self-acceptance. But there are terrible difficulties, too. Maybe a better way to put it is this: It's not a curse, it's a blessing to be what you are, but it makes life absolutely suck!

I picture myself in a better place.

Lea