That's my girl! This is pretty much the essence of the issue. NOBODY wants to transition. Do you think I WANTED to tell every dude I know and my macho bosses that I feel like I'm really a woman and I will be transitioning? Hell no. This is what you do when you literally can't stand to live a lie for one more day. It isn't easy. It will never be easy. I personally did not have the courage required to do this at 18, those that do have my humble respect.