Just take a step back and relax. Funny, but my ex-wife, who told me all about what a freak I was when I came out to her years ago, just told me all about how much she misses me now that we are divorced. No happy ending there, though, she really burned that bridge and I don't trust her. But, she regrets her decision to leave me and that decision was based at least in part on my tendency toward crossdressing. Now she seems to be trying to open a conversation about getting back together but I will not even talk to her about it because she was so unreasonable and just attacked me when I tried to be honest with her, when I was trying myself to figure out what was going through my head. Bottom line is I was honest, I asked for understanding, and I was emotionally assaulted and told to leave my house and my children. I will not ever forgive that. Period. Now she says it was a mistake, and I just agree. It was.
Oh, and in case you are wondering, I am currently in a relationship with a woman who encourages me to crossdress, and gets along very well with my sons. I am not gay, am not transitioning into becoming a woman, and actually just express myself the same way that caused the extremely dramatic rejection by my ex-wife. My problem now is that when I talk to my ex, I really don't know how to tell her politely that my life is actually better now. I miss seeing my kids every day, but I spend "quality time" with them every week and they are now never exposed to me fighting with their mother. I know the trend on this site is that many people feel guilty and wrong, but I am not in that camp. Thanks for reading.