Guys I think I may have made a big mistake in doing this. My SO was not aware I was gonna do that (nor was I so it's not like I could have told her), and in telling her today she's become very upset about it, understandably so. We're working it out right now and we seem to have sorted it, but this has made it very clear to me that I have strong compulsions to do things that might feel great and liberating for me, but can at the very least worry my SO. She is fine with the dressing up as Elvira thing for Halloween, but she wants me to do it next year so that it will 'shock' our university friends more (my day to day self gives absolutely no clue as to what you see on here). I think these compulsions will lessen to almost nothing when I go back to university as the town there is much bigger than my village down here. There will be a higher likely hood of discovery, as I'm less familiar with the area, I'll be living with three friends and there will a large number of people I know quite well all living close by, whereas there is only 1 guy that lives close by me here, everyone else living a bit further out. I'd like to point out that during the course of writing this we've talked it through and come to an agreement, but I think I need some advice on how to better express myself without going out each time I feel girly and no ones around.
