Originally Posted by
famousunknown
Ok, I’m going to be honest here
I have NEVER understood when people call this a “gift” or say we’re “blessed”. How can a condition that causes so much pain, guilt, shame, self-loathing, etc. possibly be a GIFT?
This is not a “gift” to me, I feel more like I have some kind of mental illness, but I’m not crazy in the rest of my life.
Yea, Yea, I know what the responses will be - “just accept yourself” blah, blah. I’ve read it all before over and over. Yes, people are individuals and have their own circumstances in life, that’s a given. But, either I simply “don’t get it” or everyone else who says “it’s beautiful to be trans” is demented. Can someone explain it to me without all the flowery prose? Sure, I can purge, and turn my back and say “the hell with all of this”, but here’s the kicker…it’s still in my head. Short of getting inside my head surgically and changing the wiring, I can’t shake it, no matter what. Am I the only one who’s this messed up? And yes, I can understand why suicide is prevalent in the T community. I’m not saying I’m considering it, but I really do understand it.
