That's ok, I don't mind it ^^Originally Posted by ReineD
What happened with you? How did it change?
Hope you don't mind the question. I ask a lot of them in an attempt to learn. :p
Well, something I noticed in my life is that I always got curious to dress as a man! I have memories of myself with 7 years old thinking "how would I look as a boy?". By the time, when I started to, you know, "discover myself", I noticed that I felt atractted to girls. For a long time I thought I was bissexual and sometimes not! I was very confused, until I started to dress as a boy for fun! I noticed that the same pleasure I felt putting make-up on and high heels, I had the same when putting a fake penis (made of socks LOL) and mens clothes!
I'm a very curious person, and I remember that I searched about trans, dragqueens and stuff like that (I always thought it was a magical world the trans-world LOL), and suddenly I saw a description about me: it was a small text about FTM! Now I knew why I always wanted to experience the boy side, and why I thought the trans-world was magical LOL but I got confused again! Because when as woman I felt attracted to man, and when as man I felt attracted to woman! I noticed that I wasn't a bissexual person, but a hetero-woman and a hetero-man in the same body!
At the beggining I was scared to post in the crossdressers.com because I wasn't sure I could call myself a crossdresser, but I thought: "well, I'll only know if I post LOL"
I created a topic named "Do you date or have a relationship" and the member Mikaela told me that I could be bigender! I searched about it and I totally can related to it! I'm very happy for her help, now I know who I am :D
And it's funny being bigender, sometimes I woke up as a woman and sometimes as a man! Somedays I'm atracted to man and somedays to woman! I have a boyfriend, but I'm a monogamy person (it's a monogamy relationship)! I never had sex with a woman, but I don't feel the need to do that, like I don't feel the need to have sex with other guys besides my BF!
It's curious, but I feel happier now! Now that I know who I am and happy to know I can experience this! It's like Hannah Montana of genders LOL I would never want to my boy or girl side leave me! I feel it's part of me! It's me!
/by the way, if I wrote something wrong, everybody can advice me, 'cause english is my second language!
