Hi Aalynn. Welcome to the site. I cannot speak for u or anyone else. However, my experience sounds like it may have been similar to yours.
I began suddenly dressing out of the blue at age 50. What I wanted more than anything was my own breasts. And, I fantasized about becoming a female. Unfortunately, I wanted to also be a young and pretty one. To make a long story short, I bought a silicone female suit and now I can see myself as the young, pretty woman I imagined in my mirror any time I like! Years later, I still find that image extremely exciting! Rite after I got the suit my desire for real breasts and to possibly try hormones and have GRS disappeared! I now clearly understand I'm not a TS. Simply a CD that enjoys extreme realism in my mirror and photos.
I think anyone who feels they may be confusing the desire to look female with becoming one could easily clear that up be trying what I did. For less than $1000 to can see yourself as an anatomically correct female. And, switch back and forth at will!
Obviously, my solution is probably like a joke to TSs. However, if there's just one other person like myself out there, maybe they can relate to my experience?
