Hi Paula I haven't experienced what you been through AA but I do understand and you shouldn't be ashamed. Actually admitting that you had a problem and did something to change it is being brave. As for us being a crossdresser I do feel the same way. I feel guilty and can't openly say anything to anyone about it. By definition in my book that is being ashamed. I keep asking myself is what I'm doing right. I feel it is right and know others don't think it's right so who's right. What gets me is who in society gets to say what is right or wrong. Even though I feel ashamed about this I come to the point that I just don't care anymore. The feelings I get about this outweigh being ashamed. I feel your pain and could use a hug.
