I wish I could help or even give advice but I am the last one who would know what to do. My divorce was finalized in court last Monday. My second one. I don't think relationships is my strong point. Keep your head up though, sometimes things seem the worst and in the long run it is not as it seems. Sounds like you are doing what your heart feels like the right thing. Being as unselfish as this will at least keep your conscience clean.