My wife recently went to a jewelry party and met a woman whose husband is a SWAT officer at my department. The woman said that when her husband told her about it, she asked him how I would be treated. He told her "He's one of us" and that we take care of each other.
I'm sure you are. I didn't think that I was that strong either, and I still wonder if I am strong enough to get through everything, but you do what you need to do to survive.
I haven't spoken to the chief yet, but my Commander told me the chief said that he didn't care how I presented at work as long as I do my job. I know that it will cause a lot more issues and I am willing to take my time and work with them. Maybe it will end up that it is too much of an obsticle to overcome in a short period of time. But a good friend of mine is an openly gay sergeant, something that that was not accepted until very recently. He wouldn't be able to be openly gay if others hadn't been willing to rock the boat a little. I am in a unique situation because I get to leave in 11 months. Maybe I can make the path a little easier for the next person.