Thanks flatlander. I had hoped for enough time to prepare things for her too, but that isn't going to happen. She still wants me to sleep in the same room as her. It is pretty confusing, because she also wants me out. I won't have much time to plan anything. Par for the course.
I know many here feel this is all my fault. Do I wish I'd figured this out at 20? Sure. Since I did not, I am , apparently a horrible and deceitful person. Once I did understand, I feel I've been honest, but judge for yourself from my thread.
I am not sure what I ever did, I was born into terrible suffering, and I have suffered my entire life. I think my lot is to suffer. It is unimaginable to me that it will ever end. Somehow, though, I must be to blame. Who else is there?
