Two things come to mind here Natalie.
First, it’s a big turn on for some when thinking about girl on girl. Perhaps it’s that scenario that runs through your head when you are with your girlfriend.
And saying you feel feminine with or without the clothes is exactly how I feel too.
That’s why I identify as transgender. Suzy is the real me in my head.
Could you be the same?
Food for thought.
Suzy