Sorry for the windy post. My hope for you is that you get your chance to find out who you really are, and then get the chance to be yourself. Telling family and friends is hard. Not everybody will be loving and accepting, but unlike when I was your age, there is information available to the general public. There are sights like these, there are resources you can google, and fiction and non-fiction books written by transgendered people like us.
When I was your age, I couldn't find the Harry Benjamin paper in the public library, a book store, or even as a medical journal. When the movie about Christine Jorgensen came out, I wasn't 17, so I couldn't see it. Even if I told my parents I wanted to see it, they wouldn't have taken me.
You have the chance to be who you really want to be, and I really hope that you get that chance, and that you don't struggle with it they way I did, or so many of the people like me did.





