Everyone, thank you for the feedback.
I've been struggling with this for a long time and haven't talked with anyone in person. I just needed a place to express what I'm feeling.
I completely understand that no one can really tell me if I'm TS or where I identify on the gender spectrum. I just wanted to see if others could relate to what I'm feeling.
I do appreciate all the comments. Thanks!!!
I feel like I'm in a catch 22. I need a job, but my gender issues are interfering with getting a job, like I'm not spending as much time as I should applying to jobs or freaking out on interviews...in fact I'm definitely freaking out on interviews lol.
I think for me the next steps are definitely to go out and present as a woman in the real world, and seek therapy, and a find local support group. I'm definitely not planning on rushing into transition without a job, nor saying either way that I will or will not pursue transition, or how far I will go. But one thing is for sure, I definitely need to address the underlying gender issues in some way, and find a job. I'm definitely at a fork in the road and need to figure out which direction to go.
