That would be for you to decide. I knew at an early age I had a predilection to wearing woman's clothes and disclosed to my wife on our 3rd date. We have been together 34 years and married 30. Now that I am transitioning it will only be a matter of time before we divorce. We live together in the same house and sleep in different rooms. There is a possibility we will keep the house and continue to live as roomates. I only know that you have posted you need more than to just crossdress. Good luck with whatever direction you go.