I guess it makes you a crossdresser who frequently thinks about other men, especially cd's or tv's, and likes to look at a little crotch from time to time, all the while still enjoying sex with your wife. Does that help?
Honey, labels don't mean a damn thing. They're for other people to use to sort out the things they come across in life - and half the time, they're not exactly right. Life becomes a lot easier when you stop worrying about what nook you're supposed to be assigned to fit into, and just go with what you know. Self-acceptance is a beautiful thing.
And just in case you're thinking it - there's nothing shameful about being attracted to guys. Some of us are, some of us aren't. Life's too short to feel guilty about the things that make you feel good though.
Have fun!
