Len, I think that I perceive that you are seeing your desires through a different lens for the first time.
I'm an oddball here in that I'm Bi/Pan. I remember what it was like to accept that I was a boy who liked boys. It can be challenging to your self identity in a serious way.
Don't be scared dear. Be honest with yourself and your feelings, and as the PSAs say "It gets better".
<3
- MM
