TS is just about the last thing I wanted to be but alas here I am. I just got tired of suppressing the need to be who I am whatever that is. All I really know for sure is I need to have a female body, I need the world to react to me as a female, I need to be in relationships as a female, especially intimate relationships. Transition isn't perfect but it's allowed me to keep my sanity and living authentically has removed a lot of BS from my life.