Last CD hurrah?

[Stephanie47]

All in all I have a feeling of satisfaction in my life and have nothing more to prove really. I may have indeed reached that point where I'm ready to hang up my wigs and bras for good. Time will tell I guess.

I checked your bio before posting to refresh my recollections of some of your previous postings. You're six weeks older than I. I agree with you on the statement we have nothing else to prove. I will not say that means we are ready to "check out" of this life. For me it means as a comfortable retire much of the stress that comes with a male has been alleviated. For the last several months I have not had the desire to dress. I have speculated in my mind over and over what has caused that. I find I am still attracted to this site. I am still attracted to the visual, i.e., nicely attired women. Still, with the time I have on my hands the desire has weakened. I am a realist who knows the urge may return. I wonder when the summer is over and my wife returns to work will the dressing be forced? Will I dress just to see if I still feel the same? I do not feel any shame or self loathing as I did in my early youth.

I have never had any regrets being a man with the exception of being in the infantry in Nam. That period in my life did have an effect on my cross dressing. Cross dressing was an outlet to escape bad memories. Those being somewhat resolved has eliminated the necessity of seeking an escape. Maybe hormonal changes of advancing age has also had an effect? I don't know. I do know the journey has opened my mind to alternative lifestyles. It has taught me not to judge others and to defend the rights of others. If I did not the journey would have been wasted.

But, Kate, I know what you are feeling. We'll see where it all goes.

[Kate Simmons]

I know what you mean Stephanie. I, myself, had two tours in Nam and due to my particular MOS in Intel buried a lot of things for years that I didn't want to face. Being a man made me do this? I had fully intended to transition to a woman when I got out but meeting my future wife changed all that. I had never regretted being a husband and a father but still had the nagging of dressing and finally addressed it head on and lived it 24/7 for awhile. This,of course, signaled the end of my marriage but it's something I had to do to get in touch with my deep feelings.Once I amalgamated all of my feelings and took ownership of them I was able to pursue my guy options. I found someone who didn't think the CDing was a big deal and we get along fine. Life is what we make it after all.

[Melissa_59]

Hi Kate, Say it ain't so, We may have to have a going away party for you.

When a crossdresser comes out to everyone, it's a "coming out party." So since Kate is going to stop, should it be a "going in party"?



~Mel

[Badwolf]

That would assume there is a closet, meaning something that needs to be kept hidden.

When a crossdresser comes out to everyone, it's a "coming out party." So since Kate is going to stop, should it be a "going in party"?



~Mel

[Nikki A.]

Well Kate if that was to be your swan song, I'm glad I was there to share it with you. Did I have the last dance with the incredible Kate.
Seriously, you've been an example that I've used to understand and enjoy this part of me. Both on this forum and our face to face chats through the years. Whatever you decide to do, you are my friend.

[Kate Simmons]

I'm inspired when others enjoy being themselves Nikki, especially my friends. I was happy that both you and Nancy(and her BF) came. It was great to see both of you having fun dancing and doing karaoke. I really love dancing en femme. That's what it's all about for me. I've learned to work within the limits of my diabetes and still have fun as long as I behave. I may just cut the occasions down to a few times a year with the CD weekends and Christmas party at the club. We'll see how it goes after all this stuff is in my blood my friend.

[DeeDeeB]

Kate,

We haven't met, but I've been inspired by many of your posts. Your insights have always been on the spot. My only request is: don't purge.....and if you do, offer your outfits on this site. I've hoped to meet you in your corner of PA, and if we do, I'm fine with whoever you are. You are an inspiration.

Dee :fairy1:

[Kate Simmons]

Thanks Dee. It would indeed be my pleasure to meet you Hon.

[Badwolf]

That sounds like a good intermediate step. If you don't dress for long enough, then get rid of your stuff, but don't do it to stop the urge.

I'm inspired when others enjoy being themselves Nikki, especially my friends. I was happy that both you and Nancy(and her BF) came. It was great to see both of you having fun dancing and doing karaoke. I really love dancing en femme. That's what it's all about for me. I've learned to work within the limits of my diabetes and still have fun as long as I behave. I may just cut the occasions down to a few times a year with the CD weekends and Christmas party at the club. We'll see how it goes after all this stuff is in my blood my friend.

[Christen]

Dear Kate,
Maybe one day I'll get to where you are. It must be quite a wonderful feeling.
And very glad to hear you'll stay in touch here, I really have appreciated your insight, experience and humour.

Christen x