I was a DVDer now Blurayer lol.

Conflicted is a good word, I never had any interest in frilly stuff or lingerie etc etc it was always about trying to achieve a look, I now understand that I was trying to find the person inside my head. There was always frustration though, I couldn't grasp why I did it and what I wanted, it just left me feeling worse.

Quote Originally Posted by LeaP View Post
There is nothing unusual about transsexuals dressing less or stopping entirely.

My identification as a cross-dresser lasted only until I met cross-dressers and transsexuals. That I had little in common with the former and an incredible amount of commonality and resonance with the latter was an instant realization. It is like seeing yourself in a mirror and recognizing yourself for the first time.
I stopped for ten years, but the identity issues never went away, just wish I recognised what the problem was back then.

That second statement about meeting CDers etc has so much resonance with me it's like i'm wrote it.