I agree the TED talk, Tony Robins love fest get tiresome. Short of meeting you in person there isnt alot more we can offer. If you reject it all, good for you. This crazy duality isnt for everyone. Your not a unique snowflake whose self expression is misunderstood. We will all become part of the same compost heap. So why bother torturing yourself in the meantime. Hit the bricks and go find something that will make you happy. And if you find it, let us know.