Being transsexual and needing to transition is a lot more than just dressing in the cloths and thinking you might be a girl. For most of us there is a deep driven need to be female. It is not something we want or would like to do. It is something we MUST do. We do not have any control over this need. We have no choice in the matter. If you ask, most of us will tell you it was transition or die.
I would suggest starting with a gender therapist with experience in transsexual issues. They will help you understand better what is going on with you. It may be a pink fog or it may be that you do have gender dysphoria. A lot of them will have a sliding payment scale so you can afford their services. Talk with them and see what you can arrange.
