I've come to realize that whether it's only an act that we enjoy, or it's what we want to be, the 'femme side' is something that is an integral part of who we are, not just an acting job we do such as in a play. As much as we might not want to accept it, to a certain extent we all have feminine feelings, emotions and desires, even if we can't yet accept it as who we are. I've learned to accept and appreciate it; now, if only I could find a woman who would as well.