After nearly 3 years since joining here and fully coming out to my wife there are still questions as recent as last night. I have disclosed in the past that my wife is very open to all of this and is exactly why I am posting today. I have a closet of my own with an outfit for every occasion, heels galore fully displayed on my studio/kristyn's floor, make-up setting around me right now and we still have discussions about where I am on the spectrum. I took some great advice when first joining and have let her come to me with dialogue when she wants or feels the need. She does not hammer me with this by no means but her real repetitive question is if I want to be a woman. My answer is no. Seriously, I do not want to transition into a woman. I love to depict a woman and act like one at times because I am cd/tv & probably tg but I do not want to live daily as a woman.
I am going out for my first time on Feb 5th to meet some local girls and I mentioned 2 weeks later that another outing is welcoming spouses/partners/so's. Last night, she stated she didn't know about all of "this." I quickly asked what part? I narrowed it down to her not wanting to be a part of the group outing as she does not feel comfortable. I advised she did not have to do anything she did not want and it would probably allow me to be more comfortable as well. She was relieved that I wasn't pushing for her to go. In time but not necessary.
I have let her know a few times over the last 3 years that becoming a full time woman is not on my agenda. I get lost in the pink fog at times as we all do but I mainly live in blue fog with a cloud of pink sprinkling down on me.
I write all of this to illustrate how some relationships go after coming out to your wife who is very supportive. Supportive to the point where, yesterday afternoon, we bought me lip liner and eye shadow without hesitation as I am gearing up for my first step out of the house.
My wife has not ever been mad or upset at me for this and our love has grown because of it but she does still have questions that, I assume, will always surface along the way.
Have a great day and thank you for reading,
Kristyn