Thanks all who have commented, I appreciate the view points...
Here's the thing...I don't actually know what I am or for that matter trust my judgement these days...the reason I say that is that I have changed as a person so much I don't actually know myself that well...ok that sounds stupid but here's the thing...7-8 years ago I was confident in my assessment of myself, knew what I was and where I was going...guess in truth I was very male in my opinions and confident in me......
Now days I haven't a clue where I am going on this journey seriously not a clue...all I do know is that I have introduced femininity into my life on all levels, and whilst still very male in many ways, it seems to be sufficiently feminine to totally confuse my compass...
I am not going to rush into anything that will cost my marriage, but will look to seek some counselling...AGAIN...!!
just a few comments on a couple of things written...
Nikki I am not panicking at this stage...not sure if that is good or bad...I just seem resigned to the fact that I am not and never will be "man"
Paula interesting insight into effects of HRT...I am surprised all I have read indicates that once passed first puberty then bone structure etc doesnt change, so if I needed to buy time as a man, whilst I get the kids through school etc... wouldn't male hair cut , clothes etc cut he mustard to the general public...I work in sales...and breast size I understand can take eons to grow and usually need additional surgery?
Christinak - thanks for that hun, but don't be fooled its a professional pic...lol...not photo shopped, but not recreatable in real life either...I changed the avatar to a home taken one...probably more realistic...!!
Thanks everyone for their posts I am going to sleep on some of the things said..xx
