getting "all emotional"

[ReineD]

i'l clarify, clearly its needed. I started to CD in January this year. Back in 2001 I had an awakening experience that opened me up to a huge emotional range and sensitivity, from being a dissociated engineer. Before then, yes i'd get teary in those films but suppress it. Since then I've been calm, stable, aware of emotions, largely unaffected though. I had the experience of putting words to sensations as a 40-year old - quite something.

I've noticed this among some CDers. I don't know why they seem to stifle their emotions more than men who do not crossdress. I've often wondered if CDers grow up determined to not let anyone guess they have an affinity to feminine things, and so they begin to construct rather rigid rules about what is considered masculine vs feminine, and they try hard to not let an ounce of what they think is feminine shine through?

I know it is natural for teenage boys to not want their school mates to see them being emotional, but after that "sorting-out-the-pecking-order" stage, they do move on to the next stage in life and they become more secure in themselves. They get married eventually and they don't mind shedding a tear over a movie that has emotional content because they know that their wives understand. But CDers seem to want to keep up the bravado much longer than the men I know.

I'm glad you are allowing yourself to feel all your emotions.

one may start to let their emotions show more publicly when in the past they had been subconsciously been held in check.

I just want to say that even GGs do not like to show their emotions in public, if what you mean by that is crying. I mean, young girls may cry but after a certain age, we are taught self-restraint, just like boys. It's OK to shed a tear or two at a sad movie, or with sympathy to someone who is telling you a heart-breaking story, but to just start sobbing would be unseemly if out in public.

The world needs me to be more vocal and irrational.

OK, I know you said the world needs "you" to be more vocal and irrational, but are you suggesting this is what women are like? What do you mean by "irrational" exactly, and I always thought being vocal was a good thing for both men and women. Men certainly seem to not have any difficulty wanting to dominate in group discussions.