Hey Suzanne, I think both you and Becky articulated what I assumed was true about those that transition: you "knew" but fought the knowledge due to the consequences that it might bring. Many comment here that one starts as a cross dresser an then progresses to TS but they are really two very distinct things. I have often written that I KNOW I am a just cross dresser and I KNOW it will never be more than that. In fact, I know just like you and Becky knew. But I always get the "never say never" responses. Odd, eh.
Somehow, there seems to be a general belief that cross dressing leads to transition when in fact cross dressing is really just coincident to transsexualism or transition. I'll bet that I cross dress more than you and Becky and likely many more, combined but I'm still just a cross dresser (a normal one Becky). Spouses reading here can easily reach the wrong conclusion and reasonably believe that a leads to b when a and b are two wildly different things. So strange this human condition.
I wish you the best, hope we can bump into each other sometime again,
