So, I'm now 2 months into hormones....
I am so happy right now. My anxiety comes and goes, but I can usually handle it now. I feel like someone has flipped the lights on and I can see now. I'm 180° from the person I was before.
I have been seeing the therapist monthly, and that's been going better. Its nice to be able to openly speak about this without breaking out into a cold sweat. Self acceptance is coming, I'm pretty happy with myself right now. I've lost some weight, I'm exercising for the first time ever, I've cut alot of the crap I was eating.
I'm out to both of my kids and their mother. They all seem cool with it, so we will see. The joke around the house is that we are all good with this until I show up in a dress one day. I'm not sure how long it will be until they see that though. I'm still figuring out how to make that happen without freaking them out.
I don't have anyone else to come out to, other than work, so I guess being alone in the world has some privileges.
I go back to the endocrinologist next month. He will probably increase my dosages. I'm good with that I think. I haven't seen any physical changes yet. I'm good with that tho, I want to take this slow... Better to get healthy mentally first before rushing into boobs.
