Isn't this normal for a crossdresser? I'm in my 60s now and since my preteen beginnings my desire to dress has cycled. During my 20s and 30s I naively though I was cured during those down times. I just couldn't understand why anyone would want to crossdress, and of course I purged. Then the desire would return. I don't purge anymore during the down times and I don't push dressing. I dress when I feel like it and I don't when I don't.
