Quote Originally Posted by rustifer View Post
Lately I've been obsessed with mtf transition videos on youtube. It amazes me what hormones do, and I desperately long to be more feminine.
I think watching MtF transition videos on YouTube is about the worst thing you can do when trying to discover your true gender identity.

As Zooey said, you should focus less on the transition itself and more on discovering who you really are. Working with a gender therapist will help guide you to the answers you're looking for.

I also recommend a book by gender therapist Dara Hoffman-Fox called "You and Your Gender Identity: A Guide to Discovery". Dara has a really good way of helping you discover your true self, and the book is a compilation of her work, in a sense.