Kitty you are the only one that can decide who and what you are. The road you get to where we are now is what defines our needs or desires, but you/me/we made the decisions to wear the clothes and portray as you do. And that's alright I for one never suffered from image dysfunction. I dress for me and I fit into the same boat you describe now. But it don't matter I look n the mirror and see exactly what I am. Not what I would like to but then again it's alright! I enjoy wearing my clothes, dresses, jeans. leggin's, skirts, shorts, skorts, with blouses and all the other accessories because I want to and I feel comfortable even in heels. So I am the man I always was with a extra bit of imagination and sexual motivation. And it sure has been a relief over the years, I can even admire the few positive things I see in these clothes but better yet I can find humor and even laugh at myself in these clothes. Something I can't do in my drab attire. The fact that I am myself and that includes to others a CD well that all good, I'm me. You are not alone and I'm not either!