gendermutt, I only identified as male up until I turned 43, which nearly coincided with my "a-ha!" moment of realizing that I was indeed trans. After going thru 2+ years of transition, I can see why I never truly felt at home in my own skin up until that time. It took me feeling and experiencing this side of transition to understand the depth of the first 4 decades as the 'before' me. I'm 46 now.
