The bottom line is no one actually knows, they do not know why a male wants to dress in woman's clothes
There has been some research on this, some of it extensive. It's all in the link I posted in #46. It will take time to read it though but it's worth a read if you're interested.
The crossdressing community is one that needs to stick together and continue to be there for each other for whatever one needs. We are always trying to improve the forum to better serve the crossdresser in all of us.